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i shall dedicate this probably emo post to all those who've really helped me these weeks. it's been like hell, and i'm really glad for those who constantly cheer me up (be it with random pick-up lines, and listening to self invented pick-up lines or with letting me rant my frustration on their innocent tables) gah! i shall begin to list, lest i forget who i consider myself indebted to :D sha-ren, for listening comforting hugging helping just being there and then disappearing on the day itself. haha! i forgive you, and i'll even help you with history if you promise not to dao me in week 10 (this deal is negotiable. heh. so yes, let me know your terms and conditions soon), ok moving on, those in the team: megan, ali, shirley, amelia thanks for tolerating selfishness, breaking down, inferiorty complex, rants and many other things. it's not over yet, but i'm sure we'll make it through and do well. yvette and swee en, for hugs! love! songs! and my beloved juniors and their plateful of love. haha. i was really surprised, pleasantly, no doubt, when they all turned up :O although i suspect it was also a reason for them to get together to watch marley and me. ahaha. Stacey and Vic! for going for 2 rounds of jgs :O although they're in random ulu places like near yan lin's house (:x) and random notes/pats on the head/hugs! dew: actually dew's table for being a continued source of entertainment and thus distraction :D and well dew, for always making me laugh with random things like ah tram ^^ and acceding to my requests to go and da ting da ting about very important issues. (HAHAHA, inside joke) hope dawn lim comes quick, so we can go visit! yay! Ah maan, for remembering i have competitions! and never failing to sms me (i still remember U14s, ohmygosh) and ho, whose lameness keeps me high :D xuwen for hugs (okay, i know, i need a lot of hugs from a lot of people) and intelligent sounding rebuttals. even ms nair, for comforting me when i was convinced i was screwed. i realise i'm a pretty insecure person and pressure and fear doesn't bring out the best in that aspect. *sigh*

well. there's still one more round to go, and we musn't give in. it's tempting though. there are times when i wonder what would happen if i just hadn't. what would happen if i just didn't. it's scary. it's kinda like, suddenly i'm standing on the edge of this cliff and i can peer all the way down, i can feel the fear crippling me. and then i wonder, what'd happen if i stepped off. then i see myself taking that step, i feel myself taking that step. and scarily enough, it feels oddly liberating.

hmm. i am obviously stressed. but well, i shall just go and have fun this week (eep) or at least attempt to take my mind off stuff. i'm kinda glad, actually. but then in one week, there it'll be all over again. (and "it" might unfortunately be RI) sheesh. there i go. emo again. on a random note, i enjoyed third service today though, the worship was good and for once i felt a little less burdened. word was a little age inappropriate (hehe) but overall it helped. hope it helps the next time

anyway, till i next find the time and energy to sum up all my thoughts and cram it into another post, be content with this emo rant. (yes, this is directed at STACEY)

sndebate hwaiting!